Apakah perasaan itu?

Ada ketikanya,sukar untuk kita fahami apakah perasaan yang ada,timbul dan wujud dalam diri...Adakah hanya muncul tak terduga?Secara tiba-tiba?Atau kah kerana suatu keadaan atau pengalaman lampau?Tidak tahu..
The feeling is indescribable.How am I supposed to write about this?Where do I start?Please help me.
Sometimes,I feel some sensation of a very deep longing feeling to go somewhere nostalgic.I even had this urge to go back to someplace familiar.Such as now,I longed to be back to my kampung to the time when I was a small girl.Back to the school,walking down the rubbled path to school.That was the time when life was full of joy.A simple kampung life.I swim in the river,I trekked into the woods right behind our house.I climbed trees.I tossed my bag into the house and run around.Sometimes I played volleyball at school.Sometimes,as an eldest sister I didn't get to play that much,coz I have to look after my younger siblings.Sometimes I was angry towards my mum,i answered her back.But she loved me.Never the less!Life was much simpler at that time.Those were the days when the elderly loved the younger lot unconditionally.Those were the days when our mothers let us play around the village without feeling worried.Those were the days when everybody knows each and everyone of them.I lived in a humble kampung where they grow paddy,do the rubber tapping,small scaled fishermen earn their living by catching fishes & freshwater prawns.So far,nothing much have changed.Only that nowadays every household is having their house well-lit by 24hrs electricity supply.And people no longer swim the river,only crocos do!But still,the sunset & the sunrise stays as it was.Breathtaking!Amazing!It's just me.I am no longer staying in my kampung.I have been away from even before i had my 1st mensus.I went to school in JB.My parents started to move out of the kampung as well.My dad started his business and they lived in Sarikei.He made it.Suddenly everything changed.Our simple kampung life has changed.We own a number of things which is deemed unnecessary to kampung people,or maybe unaffordable to 'em.I spent 3 yrs in JB.That was then.As for me,I continued to live faraway from my village.I studied in Kuching,Samarahan & Kuching again.I worked in Kuching,get married,further my study and have kids.And I worked again,and remained in Kuching.I was kept bz attending to my life's need.I hardly go back to kampung despite the helpless cry from my parents.I knew i've disappointed them,but what other choice do I have?The only thing is that they're still very healthy to drive from kampung to Kuching,to meet me and their only grandchildren.My 3 kids.I didn't mean to ignore them,let alone to purposely hurt their feeling.Thankfully,they seemed to be patient enough.But I know deep inside their hearts,they wished that I can be the same old me.Mak & Bapak,I am the same old me!I never changed.I always think of both of you with love ad compassions,but sometimes,the lifestyle that I live in is very demanding.Sometimes I miss the simple lifestyle that we led before this.But I know that would not be possible.Time has changed.And with that I need cope up and adapt to the changes.InsyaAllah,i will try my best to be a good daughter,maybe not now.One fine day,with all the prayer and hope,together with all the efforts,things will be better.Amin.

My Office Attires

My Office Attires may vary from blouses,skirts,trousers,jeans and yeah..baju kurung!Since I am wearing headscarf ( tudung le ),at times I find it kinda hard to find the suitable design which is semi casual/semi official yet decent enough for me.I am no baju kurung fan,which is an issue to some people,but well,I couldn't care less!My criterian of working attires are:
1)Of good and comfortable material.
2)Within my budget ( RM50 ~ RM100 is acceptable,but if it stretches to 100++ it's ok,as long it's worth it & if I find that it appear to be quite a bargain!ngehehe...).
3)We compliment each other!this is important.To me,if you look good,you must feel good for looking good.geddit?and yes,for 'toads' who happened to read this,pls read carefully:"beauty is in the eye of the beholder,and yeah...beauty doesn't linger around the word "physical' alone!wittiness and kindness is part of beauty too.And pure physical attraction is a bonus then.Well,at least to me.what say ya?
4)last but not least...hey!I LIKE WHAT I PAY FOR!is there any better reason than this?kalau dah suka,beli sajork dan puaskan hati itu........it's not a sin!kan?hahahaha.....

List & Hierarchy of 'Em Favourite Baju of Mine.

1.My Padini
A blouse that I bought in Gurney Plaza.Heck!It's blue striped with white.Small stripes.Nice.Originally it will cost me RM99 a pair,and yeah...it's a standard price for Padini,for all I know.But,yeah I am always a lucky shopper..they slashed it into 50% discount,so paid RM49.50 per pair.A bargain?yeah baby.....hahahaha...

2.South China Sea-White & Baby Pink
Heh...I love Gurney Plaza!I think I will go there as time permits whenever I'm in Penang.Trust me..It's easy to find some so-called plus size attires which is affordable and lovely.They offer you quiet a wide array of colours,design and sizes.Here,I got 2 SCS blouse.Original price:RM78.90 per pair.Thanks to the 50% discount.I got 2 pairs,for the price of 1. :-D.
The only regret?I should've listen to the promoter!"Kakak...saya rasa kakak nih pakai saiz M aje.Betul ke kakak nak size L & XL?"pedih......hehehehe.I shuld've listened to her....kan?

3.Baju Sheila Rusly ....hahahahaha...
No..no..they don't belong to Sheila Rusli.But there's this one colleague who mentioned her name in front of me!hehehe...actually it is more or less a Punjabi-cut blouse.Knee length,long sleeved,straight cut and low cut neck.Dark blue and hehe..transparent...with scattered golden particles.The neck-line was sequinned as well as the cuff it self.Nice and simple.And yeah...due to the tranparency of the baju,I need to wear tube in the inside! :).Bought this at Aliah Collection,Jln Kulas.Paid RM79 for that.sigh...bila aku balik Melaya aku tgk baju camtu rega dalam RM 35 sajorkkkk!Apakahhh.......?

4.My ever so green blouse
Bought it at Bliss Boutique,Semariang Choice SuperMall.Collared,3/4 sleeved,embroidered & partially attached to organza at the end of it.The embroidered flowers were embezzled with beads and sequins.
Paid RM59.00 for it.Normally match with my strecthable white skirt.

5.My Black Brandless Blouse
Yup!Bukan brainless!Cuma the brand was a bit alien to me.Was it KAAKIS ke KAAKIIS?Bought it during my pointless wandering moment.I was walking randomly with my mum kat India Street,sebab my mum was so eager nk beli hape ke bende ( haku pon tak hengat!).I walked up to one of the outlet yg menjual baju2 yg entah la...and I got this black blouse.It is of kind of stretchable material.and very plain!Why is it in my fav list?Shoot me...but ehe...anytime of the day,I can just go to this baju & wear it straight away!TAKYAH IRON BEB!so dapat la bermalas-malasan!heh!pemalas tak aku?yaaaaa....pada waktu2 yg tertentu!hmm...the price?UNBEATABLE!MURAH!RM32 sajork!nahhh......

6.Blouse aku yg kaler kelabu taik anjing ( off greyish ).
Yang nih aku suka.Simple but accomodating!meaning?enough to cover the bulges yet well-tailored to my need.Meaning to say,no extra fabrics which makes me look like batwoman.but it fits in nicely,without any unnecessary display of flabs!hehehe....paid RM69 for this,Bliss Boutique again.

7.Striped blouse from Aliyah Collection.
Fesyen macam kemeja biasa,a bit flimsy but well covered by the black & white stripes.The fabric is flowy yet suits my image as a working mum.suits well with my slacks but never heart rending even if i need to match it with my BUM jeans.versatile i'd say!got this for RM49.Brand apa yer?not well known pun,but suka tetap suka!

8.Jubah Seluar
This particular Jubah is a mixture of lilac/purple and off white colours.Abstract design.Flowy fabric,double lining.With a pair of bluish-purplish trousers of its own.More or less macam baju Benggali ada gak...eh...Punjab kot?Whatever la.Got it for RM60 only,Kedai Pakaian & Kain Haji Sany Parit Buntar.

9.Dark Brown Blouse
I bought this at Ngiu Kee Sberkas.Under the brand Mystique.With side zipper.Punjab Cut.Price?RM52 only.Last for 3 yrs oledi & still standing!The colour is still very dark.Cuma...sekarang nih it doesn't really fit in!I gained weight?whoaaaaa......ahahaha....

10.Baju Company
I like this one too...esp during rainy days when I can hardly open my eyelids.Wehehehe....lepas mandi terus sarung & I am on the go.I got 2 of 'em.One is dark blue and another one is in black.I gave away the dark blue one to my father.I only have the balck one.Price!TRULY UNBEATABLE!F.O.C!Hehehe...kan baju kompeni?kompeni bagi la.....

baju2 lain suka gaks....cuma this is the favourite list la....
:P

Malaysian Astronaut

Received an email from a colleague this morning!She Quoted in her mail "Ladies…. Cuci mata kejap!!!Now, if only all men are like him - smart and handsome! ". :D ok...here's the picture of 'em!

hehehe.....tapi kan kawan...nowadays ha...gentlemen are rare species.Quoted from somewhere ( x hengat la sapa cakap..)perfect man don't exist!Either they are taken or gay!so,this guy definitely taken!hahahahahaha....ok chiow!hope to find some la nanti kan?we never know they are lurking somewhere,waiting for the Miss Sugar & Spice,and everything nice...kan?hehehehe...

Hmmm...Sigh...

As much as I am concerned,I despise liars!To me,I'd rather have the most bitter and coldest truth slapping me hard in the face,rather than sweet and flattering words but laced with arsenic!I am a very realistic person.I knew it long time ago that no matter how much we;as a human wants to live in a world that's full of sugar & spice and everything nice,it is an undeniable truth that sometimes we have to face the reality that not everybody share the same perspective.I wouldn't elaborate more.This is just a short para meant for reality check!Before it ended with:CHECKMATE or STALEMATE!Anyways,Thanx mate!